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March 8, 2018

I’m honored to write that I’ll be speaking at the American Association of Suicidology in Denver this April for their Healing After Suicide Loss Day. Then the following year, at their 2020 conference in Portland, I’ve been asked to exhibit my art and have an auction where the proceeds will go back to support the AAS. I was afraid my future would always be nothing but agony and complete despair with the absence of my late husband. Now, almost four years later, I look forward to sharing how I found purpose in my pain and hopefully provide support to others, like my support group SASS-MoKan – Suicide Awareness Survivor Support and Through This Togetherhas selflessly given to me. This is surreal.
#itsnotyourfault
#postventionisprevention
#abovetherug

February 27, 2019

Brett’s suicide letter read, in part: I was never supposed to be a police officer. I just wound up in this career because of dumb luck after dropping out of art college. It was you that kept me going. This occupation has aged me horribly and I believe turned me mostly into someone I am not. I also blame the stress of this career for my health issues.

https://www.kshb.com/news/local-news/kck-sergeants-widow-says-police-departments-cant-sweep-suicide-under-the-rug-anymore?fbclid=IwAR0WiPFLVddNWbUBcGYAaiX7S8flQjHLqq406Saz13bSv904fvvJOOJCWj0

February 20, 2019

Tonight the officer’s wives of the Kansas City Missouri Police Departmentare doing a meal train for the widow of the officer who died by suicide this month. What a huge step forward they are taking. That is a wonderful, supportive idea! I’ll be there tonight to represent Kansas City Kansas Police Department – KCKPD and show my support as well. No snow is going to stop me…hopefully.
#itsnotyourfault
#postventionisprevention
#abovetherug

February 15, 2019

If weather permits, I’ll be traveling tomorrow to Wisconsin to read my book to kids and gently talk about finding hope after my husband’s suicide. The school recently had 4 young suicides and I felt very humbled when they reached out to me. I just want to do right by the kids because I think of my own students in my classroom. SASS-MoKan – Suicide Awareness Survivor Support did me right and now its my turn to do right for others.
#itsnotyourfault
#postventionisprevention
#abovetherug

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February 11, 2019

Today the officer from the Kansas City Missouri Police Department who attempted on his life Friday night has died. I am incredibly worried how the officer’s widow will be treated by the department. I know the devastation of being blamed and shunned for your spouse’s suicide and I don’t want that for her.

https://afsp.org/talk-suicide-loss-survivor-10-helpful-tips/?fbclid=IwAR3hiqgTz3Q_W3xumTcO2oFOjrURMERR-9dOmlDA2V6yKK2_UDcWG-l9rGw

February 9, 2019

My heart goes out to the family of the officer from the Kansas City Missouri Police Department who attempted on his life Friday night and is awaiting organ donor recipients before being taken off of life support. I hope at the funeral that no officer will skip over the family and glare at them, I hope at the funeral that the chief will wear his uniform and not a suit, I hope the family are not used as catalysts and blamed for the officer’s suicide in the official report and autopsy report, I hope that officer’s will reach out to the family and let them know it is not their fault and perhaps stop in from time to time to check in to see if they are ok, I hope at least one officer will stop by the year after he has died to show that they care, I hope if the family reaches out to the chief that they will not be ignored, and I hope that this officer’s death will not be treated any differently than any other officer’s death moving forward. If you know any KCMO police officers please pass that message onto them for me and tell them I’m thinking of them too. My husband was Sgt. Brett Doolittle with the Kansas City Kansas Police Department – KCKPD and ended his life in 2015. There is not one day that doesn’t go by that I don’t think about him and wish things would have been handled differently by his department. From one suicide loss survivor to another.. SASS-MoKan – Suicide Awareness Survivor Support and Through This Together will be there to support
#itsnotyourfault
#postventionisprevention
#abovetherug