Today would have been our 10 year anniversary, Brett. Sometimes it is so hard to believe that you are gone and some days I ask myself if you even existed, but none the less, I think about you everyday. I know you thought you were doing me a favor by ending your life, but it had quite the opposite effect. Many of your choices and actions as my husband and as a person were not good, but I would have never wanted this for you. I have tried looking everywhere for our wedding video for 3 years now, but I’m pretty sure you destroyed it the day you killed yourself…like you said you destroyed and ruined our marriage. I just would like to see us cutting that beautiful cake again and how you held me when we danced. I’m trying very hard today to keep myself out of the hole your suicide has unknowingly created. I’m slowly slipping down, but I know I can claw my way back up. I miss you..I hate you…and I love you -Linds
July 25, 2018
Published by abovetherug
After my husband ended his life I was completely devastated and felt as if I was torn into pieces that could never be put back together. How could life go on? The emotional pain he ended was unknowingly passed onto me. I knew I needed help quickly. I joined a support group called SASS (Suicide Awareness Survivor Support) who supports the ones left behind after a loved one's suicide and also helps raise mental health awareness. I will never get over my husband's death, but I now know that I can get through it, thanks to SASS. I sweep nothing under the rug. By starting an open and honest conversation I hope to help break down the stigmas and start raising mental health awareness. Together we can stay above the rug! View all posts by abovetherug