My late husband, Brett Doolittle, lost hope on April 22nd, 2015…three years ago. He attempted on his life on January 6th, four months prior to his suicide. He left me this letter three days later on our bed…this is his suicide note and I had no idea until after he died. As he held onto life those last months, he would refer to this letter several times before he ultimately wrapped one of our white trash bags around his head, tying it tight with his black police shoe lace, and filling it with a full red helium tank through a hose that he purchased at Party City. If you are someone who’s hurting, know that you are not alone and there is hope for help. You might think you are a burden to others or that others will be better off without you…but it is not true. You will unknowingly drag them down in the dark ominous hole you feel trapped in…they won’t stay down there for months or a couple of years…they will be down in that hole forever without you. Please look deep inside yourself and reach out for help. Call a friend, seek a counselor, go to the ER, or phone the suicide prevention line at 1-800-273-8255. I have called that number…they are so helpful. This is important for me to share because I did the best I could and now it is my job to do my best for others.