Four months before Brett killed himself he asked me, “What are your top 10 favorite meals I’ve ever cooked you?” I didn’t think this was an odd question because Brett was the cook in our house and he made 5 star meals all the time. I told him that I loved everything he made, but he insisted I ranked 10 of my favorite. He made every single one of my favorites before he killed himself. Our last meal together, the night before he ended his life, was 16 oz ribeye steaks, candied carrots, and he had purchased 3 different imported cheeses I loved…in which we ate everything. I know Brett started thinking of killing himself long before I ever met him in 1998, but in hindsight, I now know that he planned his death at least 4 months ahead of time.