My support group is starting a first responder team that will help families in Kansas City the day they find out they have lost a loved one to suicide. I think about the horrific day I found my husband and how I felt like I was going to die, that I didn’t understand what i was looking at, like my heart was ripped out of my chest to see the man I love was grey and gone, and I too wanted to be taken away in a body bag…and then I think if I had someone who went through the same thing I was going through at that time, had come to help me that night…to show me that I can get through (not over) his death..to tell me that it wasn’t my fault, to not be ashamed, that I wasn’t alone, that I will be able to smile again one day, that you may feel like you want to die, but that crushing feeling won’t feel intense forever… I can’t wait to be apart of this team.
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After my husband ended his life I was completely devastated and felt as if I was torn into pieces that could never be put back together. How could life go on? The emotional pain he ended was unknowingly passed onto me. I knew I needed help quickly. I joined a support group called SASS (Suicide Awareness Survivor Support) who supports the ones left behind after a loved one's suicide and also helps raise mental health awareness. I will never get over my husband's death, but I now know that I can get through it, thanks to SASS. I sweep nothing under the rug. By starting an open and honest conversation I hope to help break down the stigmas and start raising mental health awareness. Together we can stay above the rug! View all posts by abovetherug